Observing a newborn as he experiences the world is both fascinating and mind-boggling. Imagine your own brain, devoid of all thoughts, images, and feelings. Then…a sudden explosion… followed by a kaleidoscope of sights and sounds, coming at you from all directions.
Consider the magnitude of everything that Theo’s little brain is processing…what might my new grandson be thinking?
I could watch him for hours on end as I try to imagine this experience.
What freedom there is in possessing a mind without preconceived ideas! Try as I might to visualize my brain as empty, the mental chatter still floats, suspended in midair as I attempt this figurative “deletion”. I am reminded of picturing myself “erasing” my thoughts off of a blackboard – a technique I used to use (not with great success) on nights when sleep failed to appear on schedule.
I would love to trash some of my brain files that serve no other purpose but to congest my thinking. You know the ones of which I speak; they fall under the headings of worry, doubt, fear. Some are buried deep in the archives, and need the “unstuffit” program to open them one last time before being eliminated forever.
How I wish…
On a hopeful note, with God’s help I really have been able to deconstruct some of these files enough that I truly could send them to the recycling bin. (and prayed that they would not return in their new “reconditioned” form) Though a few remnants remain, He has been faithful in showing me how to remove these roadblocks that have prevented my forward progress.
Oh, the joy and refreshment that comes when I can see these breakthroughs…and the inexplicable lightness that results when I commit seemingly pressing issues to God. He alone can work out all of the details, rendering all of my prior fretting inconsequential.
For these past few days, life with Theo – and Enza – has made time (and my mind) stand still. What a marvelous experience it is to see all things through an infant’s and child’s eyes of newness and wonder, with total trust in the caregivers who surround them. Their sweet heads are empty of thoughts that clutter. Their innocent hearts harbor only love, pure and simple.
Such beauty…and isn’t this what God asks of us?
Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children. Ephesians 5:1
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I love this post. It is so true, realizing how many unnecessary thoughts take space in my brain, pushing out the beautiful and thankful thoughts. Little Theo, growing, developing on the outside now.
And such a precious joy to watch!
What a beautiful post. You have such a gift for seeing things clearly! Thanks for your (now “published”) reminders of what really matters. You are so GOOD at this!!!!
Yes clutter…it needs to go to the trash ….how I so remember looking at Sananda…and Jack and how I wish..ed ..to go back to that clean state . Thank you for sharing. Love Carin and co